If I could be someone,who will I be?

If I could be someone,I would like to be a billionaire.Why I like to be a billionaire?

Because with money,I can do many things that I want.I would like to pampered myself with jewelry and things that I never had before.After that,I would like to open my own IT company that can enchancing the existing technology in Malaysia.

Then,I want to buy a beautiful bungalow for my parents and support their expenses in their daily lifes. Because,this is my turn to repay their sacrifices to me and my siblings.I want to fulfill all their wants and needs. I just want make them proud of me.If I could,I would likes to change this world.

I would likes to decrease the poverty in this world,helping orphanage,create a peacefull place for them.And I would like to help another Islamic country that nowadays are in trouble with war.

But I know,money is not everything,but I think without money,we cannot live.

So,in any case money is still important to us.That is who will I be,if I could be someone.

What are my strength and weaknesses..

This is one of the topis that simple but yet a very difficult to explain it.

People have their own strength and weaknesses that they realised but sometimes they not.

So do I.

Actually,I don't very expert in judging myself about this.

But,I realise some of my strength and weaknesses.

p/s:So,please accept me although I'm not a perfect person,my friends..hehe

STRENGTH:

1)Hardworking person when I have the good moods.

2)My communication skills,I can mixed with any kinds of peoples.

3)I have the ability to cope with failures and try to learn from my mistakes.

4)Love to learn new things.

5)A good helper towards those who need it.

6)Highly energetic.

7)Patient.

WEAKNESSES:

1)Sometimes,I could be a very hot-tempered person when I get my nerves on that person.(hehehe)

2)Not punctual.

3)Lazy(the worst ever).

4)Easily get nervous around people especially when talking in public.

5)Could be a very sensitive person.

6)Lacks of woman skills.(heheheh).

7)Lacks of self-confidence.(sometimes).

There are many,or hundreds of songs that I love to heard during my free time.

But one of my favourite English song was sang by Steven Tyler feat Santana-Just Feels Better;

Steven Tyler feat Santana

"Just Feels Better"

She said I feel stranded

And I can't tell anymore

If I'm coming or I'm going

It's not how I planned it

I've got a key to the door

But it just won't open

And I know, I know, I know

Part of me says let it go

That life happens for a reason

I don't, I don't, I don't

Because it never worked before

But this time, this time

I'm gonna try anything to just feel better

Tell me what to do

You know I can't see through the haze around me

And I do anything to just feel better

And I can't find my way

Girl I need a change

And I do anything to just feel better

Any little thing that just feel better

She said I need you to hold me

I'm a little far from the shore

And I'm afraid of sinking

You're the only one who knows me

And who doesn't ignore

That my soul is weeping

I know, I know, I know

Part of me says let it go

Everything must have a season

Round and round it goes

And every day's the one before

But this time, this time

I'm gonna try anything that just feels better

Tell me what to do

You know I can't see through the haze around me

And I do anything to just feel better

I can't find my way

God I need a change

And I'd do anything to just feel better

Any little thing that just feel better

I'm tired of holding on

To all the things I ought to leave behind, yeah

It's really getting old, and

I think I need a little help this time!

Yeah

[Guitar solo]

I'm gonna try anything to just feel better

Tell me what to do

You know I can't see through the haze around me

And I do anything to just feel better

And I can't find my way

God I need a change

And I do anything to just feel better

Any little thing that just feel better

As you can in the lyrics,maybe some of the lines are not suitable for girls like me but I interpret the lyrics in my own way.For me,why I likes this songs?For me,this songs is about life.

In lifes,we have hard and happy times.But,when we got through into hard times,our emotions are easily to be down or broken with the problems. But we as a human being,we need something to soothe our emotions in spritual ways. The lyrics in this songs gives me the guts or some kind of energy to face the problems calm and rational. If you heard this song,I'm very fascinating with the guitar melody played by Santana. And I loves Steven Tyler'voice because it's a little bit husky and big voice. He actually have a former band called Aerosmith.He is the vocalist of that group. By the way,I'm a universal genre song listener but I loves song that more into rock genre.

So,this songs is very meaningful to me because it gives me some strength and makes me feels better to face the problems. Because,sometimes I becomes very weak,just because a small problems,So when I heard this songs,my moods a little bit changed. But I know,this is not the main way to release our tensions such as we need to pray to God in order to get happy and prosperity lifes.

If I could turn back time,what would i do...

hurm..

I thinks,if I have the power to turn back.. there are many things that I want to do..there are many of them..If I describe it all,maybe some people will think that I'm discontented with I have right now.. But,these are some I would like to do..before that.. Some of the story begins likes this.. I'm..... Still remember that precious moments... The sweet memories that I'm not telling to peoples everyday... Memories dat cannot being replaced with money,tears,blood or even your life. I will keep this things to guide,remember...That,i had lost my dearest arwah "tokwan"...

This lost happen when I'm still studying at KPTM in semester 2...Actually,I had already lost my arwah "tok midah" and arwah "tok zain" in Langkawi.but that is not very hard compared to this because I lost them when I was a kid..thiss.

Although we cannot talk about dead people but this blog is just to relieve my pain rather than I burst into tears...I actually a very heart-melting person..you never know..uhuhuh

back to the agenda,I received a call from my father that arwah had passed away...I'm shocked until death when i heard the news..Suddenly,my tears falling rushly through my chubby cheeks and I could not say anything then just hearing my father's calm voice...

Actually,for your information..arwah is the kindest n warm person...

I still remember the hard,rashy,warm hand.the hand that I'm always salam to greet my arwah.It is one of the moments i will remember everytime i went to his house..

The hard n rough surfaces hand,we can told that arwah had been a hard working person when he was alive and I knew it..because my father told that,his family were having a hard times during my father n his siblings when their young times...but,time passes by...they lifes becomes more easier when they married and having a stable jobs...I still remember the arwah voices,the old,white t-shirts he always wearing...Oh god...how painful it was when someone we loves had leaving us for forever...I cannot imagine if someday my loved ones especially my parents may left me..

I knew it...

I knew it...that's will happen to me...but...ALLAH..Please give me more times to spend and pays their sacrifices to me...I want to be a child,a child that will not leaves them and my family behind..

The day I received the news about arwah...The whole day,I been crying non-stop...

Thinking if i could go back to my home town to pay the last visit to arwah....but...I know...I could not been there...Kedah is not 2-3 hours journey...Kuantan to Kedah is a long journey then..

Nowadays,when the Hari Rhaya arrives...

the kampung is a little bit quiet without arwah especially the times giving the angpau..heheh...

Although the amount is too much but I'm really appreciated it...

I still remember...each of the envelope...the last Rhaya,the last angpau he gave to us..He already wrote his grandchildren'names on it...

Although the spelling is wrong but the pronounciation is 90% same with the original names...when he gave the angpau...I still remember that,he told that "blajaq rajin2"...with that warm smile...oh god....How could I replaced that smile with anyone else...How pain it could be to lost someone we love...

In the future,,when I have a stable job,I would likes to buy something good to my beloved ones.Include my arwah but...god love arwah more than I...He passed away without saying good bye to me first...Oh god...nobody could replaced him in my heart...Actually,I'm easily loves and takes care to somebody likes friends...They are everything to me...Although I'm hurt...I don't care..As long they are happy..I'm also pleased to see them happy...So....

If I can change something,I would like to change myself into someone that my family,friends that they can proud of..

What Are My Problems In Using English in Daily Conversation.

Nowadays, English is the first language in the world. English used by many people at any age. In Malaysia, especially Malay people have problems in speaking in English.So do I. Actually for me, I have many problems in using English in daily conversation.

Firstly, I have poor grammar.So,I'm afraid if I talk to someone, my grammar is broken,and eventually they laughed at me.I don't like those feelings.It will make me feel more shy and not confident to speaks infront people. Because, before this,I tried to speak English at my home,and suddenly I made mistake on my grammar and my brother has laughed at me.Since that,I'm feel very shy and I don't want to speak at home anymore.

But I'm realized,I need to improve my skills in using English in the future because English is so important,for getting a job,communicate with foreigners and people around me. When I am good in English,people will respect me as who I am.They don't laugh at me again and I don't feel shy anymore. In order to achieve this,I'm listening to English's song and try to understand the lyrics, read newspaper likes New Straits Times,The Star etc.I'm also attend English class to train myself to speak English very well.

So,using English in daily conversation is important to us to achieve our goals in our field.